I really am having a tough time dealing with this cancer and everything that was discussed today with Katherine and Dr. Grubbs. I have this heaviness over me - I'm typically an upbeat, outgoing person - but not lately.
I was fully expecting to have a date set for surgery, but because the results from the Stroboscopy (check my vocal cords) revealed a "Paretic" right vocal cord (partial paralysis) I am now at a higher risk.
I am so thankful that we have a GOD who made our bodies to do some interesting things... like having the left vocal cord take up the slack of the partially paralyzed right vocal cord... resulting in A symptomatic results... meaning: I sound NORMAL!
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Things that I have in my favor:
GOD - Stage 1 cancer - I'm young - the cancer is slow growing - it tends to behave itself and not spread - Synthroid is a cancer suppressor - really great caring doctors at MDA - and GOD!
Things against me:
The fact that it came back - Radioactive Iodine does not work on me nor will it ever - a partially paralyzed vocal cord - cancer cells on or around the working left vocal cord.
Now this may not seem like a big deal to the normal cancer patient, thankfully it is of great concern with Dr. Grubbs.
Had there been no complications with my right vocal cord the surgery would be taking place very soon.
She is a great surgeon and I trust that God has put her in my path to help deal with this mess, but she realizes the risks are too great to just pop my neck open like a Pez dispenser and take the cancer out.
The reason for the wait/delay
Partial paralyzed right vocal cord - cancer on or extremely close to the left (healthy) vocal cord. IF there is a slight nick or cut or worse to the left vocal cord then the results could be life altering. Problems breathing, eating, swallowing, and the hardest part I'm dealing with not being able to talk properly - I would more than likely have a Tracheotomy. (worse case scenario)
Again, reading it doesn't sound like such a big deal to some people... but it really is.
I came home from my appointment and slept for 2 1/2hours.
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