Who knew listening to my friends plight from her Gyno doctor visit last June would make me question the little lump on my own throat.
It was kind of funny actually as she was explaining how her doctor looked at her throat and then felt her neck and said "you have a lump on your Thyroid, you'll want to call your regular doctor and get that checked out. After that I said "I'll let you feel mine if you let me feel yours!" We laughed a lot, and because we were talking during the worship time we suddenly had to be quite. (you had to be there)
I called my regular GP Monday afternoon, and was able to get an appointment that very next day. Dr. Maidenberg was pretty concerned so they scheduled an ultrasound that Thursday. Two weeks later I was at Methodist in a room with a doctor about to have a biopsy done on the nodules.
Several days later Dr. Roarks' office called and asked me to come in. They called back 5 minutes later and said "make sure you bring your husband."
At that moment I knew it was cancer - what form it was I had no idea. Only to find out it was Papillary Carcinoma. I knew Carcinoma was Cancer - I knew the word Papillary comes from the word Papillion which is butterfly - the Thyroid is shaped like a butterfly. Really my brain went that fast.
I think the doctor thought something was going to happen like I was going to pass out. Uh, you're speaking to a divorced woman... we don't pass out (at least I don't) we get it taken care of and move on - that's what you do as a single mom.
Big mistake - I was no longer a single mom. I was married now to an amazing man.
I now had to consider laying that burden back on someone else's lap. Didn't want to do that. So I gave it to God, and strangely He handed some stuff back, to hand over to Brad.
NO! I can do this myself, what can he do?!
I did, and he could, and there was irritation, and pouting... but I knew that GOD knew I could do this myself but that was beside the point as I had prayed for a husband (and was blessed with one) and he now needed to do his job and help me.
Fast forward a year later...............
I HATE this RAI treatment! I hate that it falls on the weekend when Kam is home from college, I can only see her in 2 minute increments! Can't have any human contact, nor animals either. Arggghhh!
My body scan is scheduled for Friday! Yeah! Praying no more cancer and that this higher does of RAI will kill everything (except me) in its path!
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